Farmgal

Its the 31st today. 24 years ago on this day I did not think you would be shot the day after. Tomorrow will be 24years since you left mum, sis, bro and I. I feel that I should write you an open letter just to let you know how we are doing. This is written in a rush so don’t mind spelling and grammar for today.

First can I say I miss you very much…around this time of the year I feel every emotion that you can imagine. I am trying so hard to keep the thoughts happy ones. Remember the way you used to carry me on your shoulders at the show ground? And the many times you let me sit on your lap as you drove..I admired you dad! Maybe thats why I love a bit of speed and thrill on the road.

Oh just want to tell you that Raila and his croonies plotted the whole coup thing that led to your death. He has written a book about it. He will not be procecuted coz as you know Moi was finally chucked out. I wish he would say sorry to the many families that lost loved ones. Daddy I wish he would just take a minute and say he is sorry that I grew up without you.

One thing I have been thinking of is the lots of ice cream that you used to buy me. I tried all different colours coz you were my daddy. You ignored mummy when she said I would get sick. A few times I got bad colds but I can not complain, I loved all the ice cream you bought.

I haven’t seen you in a few years. Just want to let you know that am coming to see you at the end of august. I hope your grave is well taken care of, although I very much doubt that. I dont know what to bring you….oh …maybe I can bring you some ice cream and flowers.

Next year will be 25 years since you were shot ruthlessly and left to die in some ditch. I want to do something special, just for you. Put on your best smile coz we’ll all be coming to see you. We havent seen you as a family for years daddy, we are sorry about that.

Daddy I just want to say that I will be thinking about you tomorrow. I am trying not to cry because am writing this from a public place. Thats why most of it is jumbled up but am sure you understand how I feel right now.

 I love you daddy!!

Your daughter